Skyfall 2023: Unmasked by Pastor Nancy Odle
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[00:00:00] I wanna introduce, y'all just don't know,
[00:00:05] she's the hardest working woman I've ever known.
[00:00:08] She's not a pushover.
[00:00:11] She loves me more than anybody ever has in this whole world.
[00:00:19] If there was to be a picture in the dictionary of loyalty,
[00:00:24] it's my wife.
[00:00:28] If you wanna fight, say something bad
[00:00:30] about me in front of her.
[00:00:35] Um, I assure you, and I don't say this,
[00:00:40] I'm not just blowing smoke or making up stuff,
[00:00:44] but God brought her into my life
[00:00:49] so she could make me a better man
[00:00:51] so I could do what God's called me to do.
[00:01:01] And her presence in my life has made me a better man.
[00:01:05] So I introduced my wife, and yes,
[00:01:08] Pastor Fivefold Ministry called Nancy,
[00:01:12] not because she's a pastor's wife,
[00:01:14] she was called by God.
[00:01:16] If you got a problem with woman preaching or teaching,
[00:01:20] you don't understand the scriptures
[00:01:21] and I have a whole teaching on that to correct you.
[00:01:25] All right?
[00:01:38] Now I'm all red and blushing and grinning
[00:01:42] and it's like our first date.
[00:01:46] We even made the cashier feel a little awkward
[00:01:49] when we went through a grocery store line
[00:01:51] because we were smiling at each other so much.
[00:01:54] So I love my man.
[00:01:58] I love God, I love my man, I love my family.
[00:02:01] And so here we are.
[00:02:06] The Lord really laid something a little bit different.
[00:02:10] Some of you have heard my testimony
[00:02:12] if you have been at other conferences,
[00:02:15] if you have watched the videos.
[00:02:17] You've heard my testimony.
[00:02:19] I'm not gonna go into it completely tonight,
[00:02:22] but I've named this unmasked from fear to faith.
[00:02:28] The Lord really laid something on my heart
[00:02:31] and that's the condition of the church.
[00:02:34] I know that here we've got a lot of truth,
[00:02:36] we've got a lot of things going on,
[00:02:37] we share a lot of things.
[00:02:39] I mean, probably most of you evangelize
[00:02:42] and do all these things,
[00:02:44] but we really need to take a look at our hearts,
[00:02:48] take a look at what we're doing,
[00:02:49] make sure that we are completely walking in the light.
[00:02:52] That's what the Lord really laid on my heart.
[00:02:54] This is what church people look like
[00:02:57] to those on the outside, to those on the inside.
[00:03:02] I didn't have a lot of experience with denominations
[00:03:05] because I grew up in a charismatic word of faith church
[00:03:08] from the time I was six.
[00:03:10] So that's all I really knew
[00:03:11] until we came to Opelika and learned about Baptists.
[00:03:15] Now, nothing wrong with Baptists,
[00:03:17] but one thing that I learned
[00:03:18] from a lot of the people I encountered is they were fake.
[00:03:23] I mean, there was a lot of fakeness.
[00:03:24] Not bad as in I'm trying to manipulate you or whatever,
[00:03:29] but they had some deep issues,
[00:03:31] but they were expected to look like these people.
[00:03:35] It's all right, it's okay, everything's good.
[00:03:38] Put that smile on and just go to church,
[00:03:41] even if you're ripped out inside
[00:03:42] and dealing with all kinds of issues
[00:03:45] or you're dealing with abuse
[00:03:47] or you're dealing with an alcoholic husband or whatever,
[00:03:50] they just, it's thumbs up and a fake smile on your face.
[00:03:56] So I started kind of putting together some things here,
[00:04:00] pornography in the church.
[00:04:02] When you start just even pulling up statistics
[00:04:04] about the different issues in the church,
[00:04:07] you just really, it's mind blowing.
[00:04:10] 15 mind blowing statistics about porn and the church.
[00:04:14] And I'm not gonna read through all of these,
[00:04:17] but Christians are just consumed with these secret sins.
[00:04:24] You've got pastors, youth pastors.
[00:04:26] There was one, I can't remember if it was Brownsville
[00:04:30] or another conference.
[00:04:31] They were talking about Christians
[00:04:32] coming for a Christian conference
[00:04:34] and how the hotels would say,
[00:04:36] whenever the Christians came in back in the day,
[00:04:39] you'd rent the porn from the hotels at night, whatever.
[00:04:45] And it would skyrocket when the Christians were in town.
[00:04:49] And yeah, it is a wow, it is a wow.
[00:04:53] But nobody's talking about it.
[00:04:55] Nobody's addressing it.
[00:04:56] You don't have a lot of people
[00:04:57] who are coming out and confessing it.
[00:05:01] Here's another one, divorce in the church.
[00:05:04] It's rampant, it's rampant.
[00:05:07] You see this one, Christian, religious composition
[00:05:11] of divorced or separated adults, Christian.
[00:05:14] 74%.
[00:05:17] Look at these other non-Christian,
[00:05:19] look at the percentage on those.
[00:05:22] 1%, 1%, 1%.
[00:05:24] Unaffiliated is only 20%.
[00:05:28] It's huge in the church.
[00:05:34] Addictions, alcohol, gambling.
[00:05:38] I knew a lady who had, you know,
[00:05:40] I never really even thought about gambling
[00:05:42] and addiction like that,
[00:05:43] but I knew a lady years ago
[00:05:46] who could not even drive down a certain interstate
[00:05:49] because there was a billboard for a casino
[00:05:52] and she could not resist.
[00:05:54] She would drive past,
[00:05:56] and she was a sweet, older,
[00:05:58] I mean older Christian lady.
[00:06:01] And she would drive past it and be just compelled.
[00:06:03] She just could not not go to the casino.
[00:06:07] Marijuana, all kinds of other drugs,
[00:06:10] prescription drugs.
[00:06:12] Our churches are filled with people
[00:06:14] who are just numbing themselves
[00:06:16] and they'll go to church on Sundays,
[00:06:19] thumbs up, smile, how you doing brother?
[00:06:22] And they just smoke pot the night before.
[00:06:25] Then you got these kind of issues.
[00:06:28] You see the hulk, anger issues, depression,
[00:06:31] unforgiveness in the church.
[00:06:34] And I've said this before,
[00:06:35] we're gonna have a lot of people show up
[00:06:38] when it's their time to stand before the Lord
[00:06:40] and get turned away
[00:06:41] because they held unforgiveness against people.
[00:06:45] That's a huge one, you know.
[00:06:47] Secret past, criminal past, things like that.
[00:06:50] I'm gonna pause right here because the hulk,
[00:06:55] is the hulk in the audience?
[00:06:57] Rachel, come on up.
[00:07:00] I'm gonna ask, this is one of our,
[00:07:02] actually not just one of our ministry school students.
[00:07:05] This is our valedictorian this year.
[00:07:07] Give her a hand.
[00:07:12] This is Rachel Jerry.
[00:07:13] And so speaking of these secret things,
[00:07:17] she's been in the church.
[00:07:18] She loves the Lord.
[00:07:21] Spirit filled all of these things.
[00:07:25] But I want you to hear her testimony.
[00:07:28] And then I'll keep going after that.
[00:07:31] Thank you, I've never been called the hulk before.
[00:07:34] But it does kind of fit with my story, so.
[00:07:37] Well, I wanna thank Pastor Nancy and Pastor Dean
[00:07:40] for inviting me to share this testimony here at Skyfall.
[00:07:43] And this is the testimony of how I was set free
[00:07:47] from spirits of death and suicide,
[00:07:50] even as a follower of Jesus Christ.
[00:07:53] John 10, 10 says that the thief comes not
[00:07:56] but to steal, to kill, and to destroy.
[00:07:58] And that's exactly what the thief Satan was set out
[00:08:01] to do with me in my life.
[00:08:03] So I gave my life to the Lord when I was about five or six,
[00:08:07] grew up in a Christian family, went to church.
[00:08:10] But that didn't stop Satan from feeding lies into my mind
[00:08:16] from a very early age.
[00:08:18] And these lies really made me hate myself.
[00:08:21] And robbed me of what the truth of God's word said about me.
[00:08:26] And really each lie was like a little brick
[00:08:29] that just built up these strongholds in my mind.
[00:08:32] And they would be things like, I'm not good enough.
[00:08:36] Nobody cares about me.
[00:08:37] I'm a failure, I'm worthless.
[00:08:40] Nobody notices me, I'm not capable.
[00:08:42] Maybe some of you have some of those thoughts.
[00:08:45] And these were, when I say I believe these things
[00:08:48] about myself, I mean, I believed it.
[00:08:51] They were impenetrable walls.
[00:08:53] Nothing anybody would say or do could change my mind.
[00:08:56] And even reading God's word, I believed it was the truth
[00:09:00] but I believed it was the truth maybe for somebody else,
[00:09:02] not for me, because I wasn't worthy of it.
[00:09:06] And these strongholds really made me susceptible
[00:09:09] to be really tormented by demonic intrusive thoughts
[00:09:14] of destruction and suicide.
[00:09:16] And all the enemy needed was the opportunity
[00:09:19] or that open door.
[00:09:21] And that first open door came when I was 13 years old.
[00:09:25] I was dealing with a second parental divorce,
[00:09:29] one of my parents divorced for a second time.
[00:09:32] And my heart was broken and I felt abandoned
[00:09:35] by the step parent and step siblings that left.
[00:09:39] So I remember I would sit outside at the end
[00:09:42] of the driveway and I would watch,
[00:09:44] like waiting for them to come back
[00:09:45] and they weren't coming back.
[00:09:48] And in one of those moments, it was the first time
[00:09:52] I heard a voice say to me,
[00:09:55] when you see the next car drive by,
[00:09:58] you just go out and jump in front of it.
[00:10:02] And I didn't know anything about demons,
[00:10:07] spiritual warfare, oppression.
[00:10:09] I wasn't taught about it.
[00:10:10] And I didn't know it was even possible
[00:10:12] to be attacked in this way.
[00:10:13] So I thought it was my own thoughts,
[00:10:15] but now I know it was demonic.
[00:10:18] And I just wanna say, I don't believe
[00:10:20] that every single person that has suicidal
[00:10:23] or intrusive thoughts is being attacked by a demon
[00:10:27] or has a demon oppression.
[00:10:33] But it is a very common cause.
[00:10:35] And I'd say probably one of the most common causes.
[00:10:38] And it's far too ignored and people can be set free
[00:10:41] by Jesus Christ.
[00:10:44] So starting at the age of 19 and in the years after that,
[00:10:48] suicide just began to surround me.
[00:10:51] I lost a good friend to suicide and then a classmate
[00:10:55] and then a student in the college dorms
[00:10:58] that I was in charge of and failed to counsel
[00:11:02] when she really needed help.
[00:11:04] And I had an ex-boyfriend that threatened suicide
[00:11:06] when I ended the relationship.
[00:11:08] And on top of that, I was just constantly crippled
[00:11:12] by the fear of my loved ones dying.
[00:11:19] And then in 2014, I did lose a very loved family member
[00:11:24] to suicide.
[00:11:26] And this was so incredibly heartbreaking
[00:11:29] and confusing for our family.
[00:11:31] And on one hand, I wondered, how can someone do this
[00:11:35] and leave their family behind in such pain?
[00:11:38] But then on the other hand, I thought,
[00:11:41] I know how someone could come to this point
[00:11:44] because I felt it.
[00:11:47] So in my early adult years, this demonic voice in my mind
[00:11:50] would start to speak to me more often.
[00:11:53] And to be honest, it really didn't happen very much
[00:11:56] in my teenage prodigal years
[00:11:58] and I was living like the world.
[00:12:00] It got much worse when I completely surrendered to Jesus.
[00:12:04] So I don't understand how people can say
[00:12:06] that Christians cannot be demonized.
[00:12:09] When you're living for the world,
[00:12:10] when you're living for Satan, he's gonna leave you alone.
[00:12:12] It's when you're a threat that the attack comes.
[00:12:16] So I would have just, I call them episodes,
[00:12:20] episodes of sobbing and despair and rage,
[00:12:24] like the Hulk, I guess.
[00:12:26] And that's when this voice would just say things like,
[00:12:33] see, you're really just a crazy person.
[00:12:35] Look at you, you're messed up in the head.
[00:12:37] And this would just add to my depression
[00:12:40] and I couldn't figure out why I was just so overtaken
[00:12:42] by these thoughts and these feelings.
[00:12:45] And when my husband Chris and I got married,
[00:12:47] it really just ramped up
[00:12:49] and these demonic spirits would take advantage
[00:12:52] of every disagreement we would have or argument
[00:12:55] or really just any disappointing life experience
[00:12:57] because to me that was failing
[00:12:59] and I already believed I was a failure.
[00:13:03] So this would just really throw me into anxiety
[00:13:06] and despair and rage and I would have those,
[00:13:09] you're a failure, you're always gonna fail.
[00:13:13] Everyone would just be better off without you.
[00:13:16] Thoughts about running out in front of the train tracks
[00:13:19] or maybe once you're gone,
[00:13:21] finally everyone will take notice of you.
[00:13:24] And I hated this voice,
[00:13:27] but it kept just getting louder as the years went on.
[00:13:30] Like Pastor Nancy said, even as a spirit-filled believer,
[00:13:33] I was active in our church.
[00:13:35] I was a Christian, but this was still really oppressing me
[00:13:38] and it was hidden.
[00:13:41] And it's interesting because after every episode,
[00:13:46] I would just feel so wiped out.
[00:13:49] Like I'd been in a fight or run a marathon,
[00:13:53] I would just be exhausted
[00:13:54] and I remember feeling like it felt like something else
[00:13:56] was taking me over,
[00:13:58] but I didn't believe Christians could be demonized.
[00:14:00] So that just fed the lie
[00:14:02] that there was something inherently wrong with me.
[00:14:05] So the worst of these episodes came in January of 2021
[00:14:11] when one evening I was just having one of these episodes
[00:14:14] of just crying and yelling and even throwing things.
[00:14:19] And this time I really just felt like
[00:14:20] I was out of control of my own body
[00:14:23] and that voice in my head was just shouting at me
[00:14:27] that the only way for this to end was to die.
[00:14:31] It was like I was watching myself from the outside,
[00:14:34] begging myself to stop, but I couldn't.
[00:14:37] And I know you guys will believe this.
[00:14:41] When I share this back at home,
[00:14:42] people are like, what?
[00:14:43] But I know you'll understand.
[00:14:44] So I felt like my own face was taken over
[00:14:49] by this demonic spirit.
[00:14:51] I can't explain it other than it felt like something else
[00:14:54] came into my face and I knew if I looked in the mirror,
[00:14:57] then I wouldn't recognize myself.
[00:15:00] So I praise the Lord, this situation deescalated.
[00:15:03] I don't even remember how or what happened,
[00:15:05] but he kept me safe.
[00:15:08] But in the days following this,
[00:15:09] I felt that exhaustion
[00:15:11] and I just really knew something needed to change.
[00:15:14] And I was in a really spiritually dry season
[00:15:17] and just really desperately wanting to be closer to the Lord
[00:15:20] and know the complete truth of what his word said,
[00:15:24] even if it meant things that I had believed were wrong.
[00:15:27] So I cried out to the Lord and asked him
[00:15:29] to just reveal his truth to me no matter what it was.
[00:15:33] I just wanted the whole truth.
[00:15:36] And immediately he answered my prayer
[00:15:38] and led me exactly in the direction I need to go.
[00:15:41] And a very big part of that
[00:15:43] was finding Pastor Dean's teachings.
[00:15:46] I learned the truth about a lot of things,
[00:15:48] but that included spiritual warfare and deliverance.
[00:15:51] And I began to work on my own deliverance
[00:15:54] and started with suicide and depression.
[00:15:59] And it did lessen to a degree,
[00:16:01] but the Lord still had a little bit more to heal in me
[00:16:05] and teach me before I was completely set free.
[00:16:09] So then in 2022, I lost another family member to suicide
[00:16:13] and I knew and it was a reminder
[00:16:15] of how much I really needed to continue in my fight.
[00:16:19] So through a lot of refining work
[00:16:23] and just the power and the truth of God's word,
[00:16:26] those strongholds of all those lies that I listed off
[00:16:30] were just completely dismantled in my mind
[00:16:34] and broken down.
[00:16:35] And my mind, it feels like I have a brand new mind.
[00:16:38] I'm still comprehending how brand new
[00:16:41] and transformed my mind is.
[00:16:42] It's just amazing.
[00:16:51] So when you think about a stronghold,
[00:16:54] a stronghold is somewhere that you hide
[00:16:57] or it's for protection, right?
[00:16:58] So now that that stronghold was gone,
[00:17:01] the enemy was fully exposed.
[00:17:02] And at the beginning of this year,
[00:17:04] I was able to recognize that
[00:17:07] not all of those spirits of suicide had left yet.
[00:17:10] And the Lord revealed to me
[00:17:12] that I was dealing with multiple spirits
[00:17:14] and he showed me all of the open doorways
[00:17:17] that the enemy came in in my life
[00:17:19] and it was like childhood trauma,
[00:17:22] the abandonment, just the trauma from losing people
[00:17:24] to suicide and generational open doors.
[00:17:28] So now I had this new confidence
[00:17:30] and assurance really in my identity
[00:17:34] and authority in Christ
[00:17:35] and those strongholds are broken down.
[00:17:37] So I was ready to just be completely set free.
[00:17:40] So I commanded all spirits of depression,
[00:17:44] anxiety, fear of death and truths of thoughts
[00:17:47] and suicide to leave me in Jesus name
[00:17:49] and I could physically feel them leave my body.
[00:17:53] Honestly, if someone saw me,
[00:17:54] they probably would have thought it was nuts.
[00:17:57] But after that, I just felt the peace of God
[00:17:59] just totally surround me
[00:18:01] and I felt such a relief
[00:18:03] because I knew that I had finally been set free.
[00:18:06] So for the first time in most of my life,
[00:18:09] I am free from that loud and plaguing voice of the enemy
[00:18:13] and my mind is quieter than I ever knew it could be.
[00:18:20] Thank you.
[00:18:21] Another one of those lies that the enemy really ingrained
[00:18:31] into me from a young age
[00:18:32] is that I would never be able to speak.
[00:18:35] I wasn't capable of speaking
[00:18:36] or I'd never be able to speak in front of a crowd.
[00:18:39] So here I am speaking today in front of you
[00:18:42] because of the incredible power of our savior,
[00:18:46] Jesus Christ came to set the captives free
[00:18:49] and now this captive is completely free.
[00:18:52] Thank you.
[00:19:00] Praise God.
[00:19:02] That's right.
[00:19:18] So that's her testimony of deliverance
[00:19:21] and I love the fact that the way I found out about it
[00:19:25] was she made a YouTube video and sent it to us
[00:19:28] and it was powerful.
[00:19:30] I mean, it just so powerful.
[00:19:33] So it was suicidal thoughts, depression.
[00:19:38] Next we have abortion and that was my stronghold.
[00:19:43] Quick overview of my testimony
[00:19:45] is that I grew up in the church.
[00:19:47] I mean, literally my parents were in church when I was born.
[00:19:52] I think it was a Baptist church.
[00:19:54] They ended up switching to a Pentecostal Charismatic Church
[00:19:57] when I was six.
[00:19:59] So, I mean, I was born again.
[00:20:03] I was even a tongue talking child.
[00:20:06] I received the baptism of the Holy Spirit
[00:20:08] when I was a child and what does John 10 10 tell us?
[00:20:15] The thief cometh not but for to steal,
[00:20:17] to kill and to destroy.
[00:20:19] God, Jesus has come to give us that we might have life
[00:20:23] and that we might have it more abundantly.
[00:20:26] Well, the enemy came in to steal everything
[00:20:28] that the Lord wanted to do in my life at that point
[00:20:30] and what he had done.
[00:20:32] I mean, I would pray for people.
[00:20:35] When I was a kid, I saw healings.
[00:20:37] I saw healing in my own body whenever I had an injury
[00:20:41] to my face and the Lord just completely healed it.
[00:20:44] I mean, just amazing because I had people in my church
[00:20:48] who believed the word and they just prayed over me
[00:20:50] and we just saw miracles and awesome things happen.
[00:20:53] So that's how I grew up, just in the word.
[00:20:57] But the thief came to steal it, but I helped him.
[00:21:02] You know, the open door that I had was rebellion.
[00:21:06] Yes, this is teenage rebellious Nancy.
[00:21:12] You see that look?
[00:21:13] I just, I had the look.
[00:21:15] So I got to a point where I let it all go.
[00:21:20] I was rebellious.
[00:21:22] I thought my parents didn't know anything.
[00:21:24] You know, I thought my friends were the best thing
[00:21:29] since sliced bread, you know,
[00:21:31] and this was all in a youth group.
[00:21:33] So once again, I'll warn you about youth groups, you know.
[00:21:38] Be careful.
[00:21:39] You know, I started hanging out with my youth group friends
[00:21:42] and we started smoking pot and drinking
[00:21:46] and just doing all the things that I wasn't supposed to do.
[00:21:50] But the thing is, this was my open door.
[00:21:53] For rebellion is the sin of witchcraft
[00:21:55] and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry.
[00:22:00] That's the thing.
[00:22:02] A lot of us don't realize it's witchcraft
[00:22:04] that we're opening up and idolatry, stubbornness.
[00:22:09] My God, my idol was myself.
[00:22:12] I wanted what I wanted.
[00:22:14] I didn't want to listen to my parents.
[00:22:16] I thought I knew everything.
[00:22:17] It was me, me, me, me, me.
[00:22:19] And that's what really opened the door.
[00:22:23] I can't remember who, well, I guess it was last night.
[00:22:27] Pastor Locke said something about sin taking you
[00:22:29] further than you ever thought you would go.
[00:22:33] I went from a born-again, tongue-talking child
[00:22:36] who loved the Lord and grew up in church
[00:22:40] and to a rebellious teenager
[00:22:43] who was having sex with a deacon's son.
[00:22:47] I was a deacon's daughter.
[00:22:48] My sister was the youth pastor of our church.
[00:22:53] So we were in fornication.
[00:22:55] I got pregnant at 17.
[00:22:57] Thankfully, I had a friend that stepped up and spoke out.
[00:23:02] And so I ended up having my daughter
[00:23:04] right before I turned 18.
[00:23:07] My oldest daughter is 34 now.
[00:23:09] But I was smoking pot, drinking.
[00:23:13] I ended up getting married.
[00:23:14] And I'm just giving you the quick rundown
[00:23:16] because this is not the main point.
[00:23:19] Ended up getting married, which, of course,
[00:23:21] was a disaster because we were both selfish and stupid.
[00:23:25] You know, that's what you get.
[00:23:28] Yep.
[00:23:30] But then I ended up after that,
[00:23:33] I made that right decision and had my daughter at age 17.
[00:23:38] But then I became pregnant after that.
[00:23:41] And I just couldn't take, I was just like,
[00:23:44] I can't do it.
[00:23:45] I'm just not gonna do it
[00:23:46] because the church that I had grown up in
[00:23:49] had kind of been less than kind to me about my pregnancy.
[00:23:58] And so that kind of scarred me and made me think,
[00:24:00] well, I can't come to him again and tell him I'm pregnant.
[00:24:03] Even though I was married to the guy,
[00:24:05] I was like, well, they're gonna just think I'm stupid.
[00:24:09] The enemy just got in there.
[00:24:10] So I went and had an abortion.
[00:24:13] Well, soon after that,
[00:24:16] because a lot of times what happens is
[00:24:18] once you have an abortion,
[00:24:20] you're prone to get pregnant again.
[00:24:22] So I got pregnant again and had a second abortion.
[00:24:27] Of course that marriage ended in divorce
[00:24:30] because of all that.
[00:24:31] And then I'm still, after I had an abortion
[00:24:35] and an abortion after that, I end up just tormented.
[00:24:38] I'm having suicidal thoughts, I'm having depression,
[00:24:41] I'm having, you know, I'm just off the chain.
[00:24:46] Nancy went crazy as far as living a sinful lifestyle
[00:24:50] because I got opened the door
[00:24:52] and I just got plunged into deep, deep darkness.
[00:24:56] Suicidal thoughts, depression,
[00:24:58] and doing everything I could just to kind of numb it.
[00:25:03] So I went all out, pot was my thing
[00:25:06] because I didn't like to drink
[00:25:07] because it made me go to the bathroom.
[00:25:09] So, you know, that was what I did.
[00:25:14] And of course, for those who say,
[00:25:16] oh, well, marijuana is a, God made marijuana.
[00:25:19] No, we've got 1 Peter 5.8 that says,
[00:25:23] be sober, be vigilant because you're adversary the devil
[00:25:26] as a roaring lion walketh about,
[00:25:27] seeking whom he may devour.
[00:25:29] So I definitely, I was not sober.
[00:25:32] I was definitely not vigilant.
[00:25:34] And I just got completely for years
[00:25:38] plunged into a deep, dark, rebellious,
[00:25:41] I just continued in my rebellion towards God.
[00:25:44] But the difference was I had a child.
[00:25:47] So I kind of grew up.
[00:25:49] So I started going to church again.
[00:25:52] I ended up getting married again.
[00:25:55] We went to church.
[00:25:57] We lived this life, you know,
[00:25:59] that I knew that I was supposed to live
[00:26:00] because that's how I'd been taught.
[00:26:02] But by the age of 21, I had a four year old daughter,
[00:26:05] two abortions, divorce, depression, suicidal thoughts,
[00:26:08] self hatred, I just could not stand myself.
[00:26:11] But you wouldn't have known it on the outside.
[00:26:13] And then I was in to drugs and alcohol.
[00:26:18] But I went to church.
[00:26:20] I mean, because that's what you do.
[00:26:22] You go to church, right?
[00:26:26] Got married again, we had a son.
[00:26:30] He's now 30, praise God, he's awesome.
[00:26:33] My kid, I love my kids, I love my grandkids.
[00:26:36] But we still going to church on Sunday,
[00:26:41] shooting, pulling, smoking pot in the garage
[00:26:44] after the kids go to bed.
[00:26:47] Putting on that face, putting on that smile.
[00:26:50] By the age of 31, I had two children
[00:26:54] and I ended up having another abortion
[00:26:57] because when I found out I was pregnant
[00:27:01] in this marriage that, you know,
[00:27:03] was supposed to be so wonderful,
[00:27:05] I also at the same, like almost exact time
[00:27:09] found out he had been cheating on me for a year.
[00:27:12] And this pregnancy that I thought was,
[00:27:15] oh, this is the way it's supposed to be, I'm married.
[00:27:17] Yay, I finally did it right.
[00:27:20] You know, all of a sudden all of that depression
[00:27:22] and the spirit of death was just on me and in me.
[00:27:28] And so I just went and did what I knew,
[00:27:32] you know, I had done before.
[00:27:34] And it just made things just go darker
[00:27:36] and darker and darker.
[00:27:39] So by the age of 31, I had two children,
[00:27:41] three abortions, ended up with two divorces,
[00:27:46] depression, suicidal thoughts, self-hatred.
[00:27:49] But the beautiful thing about God is he reached in
[00:27:52] and really just, in the midst of all the divorce
[00:27:57] and all the chaos, he pulled me out of that darkness
[00:28:01] and I just got born again, all over again.
[00:28:06] So I stopped pretending and going to church,
[00:28:10] with a smile on my face and pretending that I was a Christian
[00:28:14] and I really, really got born again
[00:28:16] and I started diving in.
[00:28:18] But I still had all of those issues.
[00:28:21] I mean, I still had the suicidal thoughts,
[00:28:24] I had the depression, I didn't like myself at all.
[00:28:28] Not saying that I'll just love me now in a prideful way,
[00:28:32] but I was just really against me.
[00:28:36] I hated everything, I didn't even like to look in the mirror.
[00:28:39] This was pretty much me and this is what happens.
[00:28:43] We heard about this last night,
[00:28:45] we've heard about this from Rachel.
[00:28:47] You know, with all of these things comes demons
[00:28:51] and we've dealt with the deliverance topic
[00:28:56] and the Lord, through my wonderful husband,
[00:29:00] taught me about deliverance
[00:29:02] and I was able to come up out of that.
[00:29:06] But I still, I had the shame about the abortions.
[00:29:11] I had just this, I couldn't even say the word.
[00:29:16] I couldn't admit it, I couldn't stand up here
[00:29:20] and testify about it.
[00:29:22] I was still in bondage, even though I even,
[00:29:26] after I had confessed my sin and everything,
[00:29:29] I was still in bondage.
[00:29:31] This song was an interesting time in my life,
[00:29:34] it came out and this was like me to a T
[00:29:36] and I think there are people in here that this is them.
[00:29:40] It's not too long, just listen to the words,
[00:29:43] it'll pop up on the screen.
[00:29:46] This is where a lot of church people are
[00:29:50] and when I say church people, you may not go to a church
[00:29:53] because I know a lot of people that listen to Pastor Dean,
[00:29:56] they can't find a church or they listen online
[00:29:59] and everything else.
[00:30:00] But a lot of us church people Christians
[00:30:04] are in this position and I think the Lord
[00:30:07] is speaking to us tonight.
[00:30:09] It's not just about salvation,
[00:30:11] it's not just about deliverance and healing
[00:30:15] and all those things.
[00:30:17] It's about kind of coming out of the closet,
[00:30:19] taking off the mask and starting to get real.
[00:30:22] Real with each other, real with the world.
[00:30:25] Stop pretending that we are something that we're not,
[00:30:28] that we don't have all these issues going on.
[00:30:31] So we're gonna listen to this for just a minute.
[00:30:56] One that fails, is there anyone that falls?
[00:31:00] Am I the only one in church today, feeling so small?
[00:31:05] Cause when I take a look around,
[00:31:08] everybody seems so strong.
[00:31:11] I know they'll soon discover that I don't belong.
[00:31:16] So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay.
[00:31:22] If I make them all believe it,
[00:31:25] maybe I'll believe it too.
[00:34:20] And so I was working with a youth group
[00:34:23] and I was doing that song as a skit, all right.
[00:34:28] And we were talking about what we were gonna do
[00:34:31] and I had a lady helping me with these teenagers.
[00:34:34] And I saw it in my spirit, I was like,
[00:34:36] it was at a church of God.
[00:34:39] And I knew that I needed to show
[00:34:40] all of these different scenarios
[00:34:43] and like abortion and all this stuff.
[00:34:46] And then show them just walking straight into a church
[00:34:48] with a mask on their face.
[00:34:51] Because it's called stained glass masquerade,
[00:34:53] basically putting on a show.
[00:34:55] So these are my notes.
[00:34:56] As Cheetra said this morning,
[00:34:59] I tell people, write things down.
[00:35:00] It's important to write things down
[00:35:02] because you don't know what's important and what's not.
[00:35:06] So this was back in 2007.
[00:35:08] So we were going to this dance practice
[00:35:10] and I said, me and these people,
[00:35:12] we decided to do stained glass masquerade.
[00:35:14] I shared seeing a husband and a wife
[00:35:17] overwhelmed with problems,
[00:35:18] then putting on a mask and going to church.
[00:35:22] Then a girl coming out of an abortion clinic,
[00:35:24] crying and then putting on a mask and going to church.
[00:35:28] I told them one in three women have had an abortion
[00:35:32] so it's a valid subject.
[00:35:33] Because I was a little,
[00:35:35] I was thinking that they might not like to have that
[00:35:37] in their church play or skit.
[00:35:41] When I told them that, the lady who was helping,
[00:35:43] her name was Sheila, raised her hand
[00:35:46] and told her testimony about having an abortion.
[00:35:49] And that was really the first time
[00:35:51] I'd ever been around a person
[00:35:54] who had just so openly talked about abortion.
[00:35:56] And it really shocked me
[00:35:58] because I was sitting there going,
[00:35:59] wow, I could never do that.
[00:36:02] It's just amazing.
[00:36:04] Same exact day, go to the next one.
[00:36:08] I go home and I was a single mom.
[00:36:11] So I was trying to make a little extra money.
[00:36:12] So I was selling this cosmetic stuff, trying to.
[00:36:15] I'm not a good salesperson.
[00:36:16] I hate asking people for money.
[00:36:20] I'd rather give away all the books than charge people.
[00:36:25] So that didn't turn out very well.
[00:36:27] But after practice, I came home and I had this meeting
[00:36:30] with this Arbonne cosmetic thing with these people.
[00:36:34] And the other people that were with me
[00:36:36] went into another room and the lady that was there
[00:36:40] who was in charge of the selling of this stuff, Angie.
[00:36:44] She told me this incredible, I mean, just out of the blue
[00:36:47] for no reason in my den at my house.
[00:36:49] It just, I had not even told her
[00:36:51] what just happened at the practice.
[00:36:54] So she told me this incredible story of deliverance.
[00:36:58] She said that she and this other lady, Pam,
[00:37:01] had gone to an all-black women's conference
[00:37:04] to do an Arbonne table.
[00:37:07] Angie ended up on her knees with everyone praying for her
[00:37:10] and the main lady was commanding an evil spirit
[00:37:13] to leave her.
[00:37:14] She said there was a fire in her belly
[00:37:16] that moved all the way up until it eventually left her.
[00:37:20] It caused her to scream a demonic scream.
[00:37:24] Angie said she had felt like since she was young
[00:37:27] that there was a spirit in her.
[00:37:30] She said when she was a teenager,
[00:37:32] she dated this guy who was demonic.
[00:37:35] He used to beat her and would go crazy and scream crazy.
[00:37:39] She said she had sex with him and had an abortion.
[00:37:43] That blew me away.
[00:37:46] Ever since then, she felt like there was something off
[00:37:49] and even though she had been saved,
[00:37:52] there was something keeping her
[00:37:54] from the way her relationship
[00:37:57] was supposed to be with the Lord.
[00:37:59] And she said that and it was just like,
[00:38:02] it was a dart going into me.
[00:38:03] I'm like, that's exactly how I felt.
[00:38:05] I mean, I've known the Lord since I was a child,
[00:38:08] but it was like I had this wall, this ceiling,
[00:38:11] this place I couldn't get past.
[00:38:15] And here was one day, two people
[00:38:19] telling me their abortion testimonies.
[00:38:22] Tell me that's not a sign from the Lord, you know?
[00:38:26] So long story short, I ended up as the executive director
[00:38:31] of a pregnancy resource center.
[00:38:33] The Lord really worked miracles in that.
[00:38:42] But the thing was, the thing that really brought me out
[00:38:44] of that was people who didn't stay silent.
[00:38:49] People who weren't ashamed of what they had been.
[00:38:52] People who weren't ashamed of their testimony.
[00:38:55] People who are able to get up on a stage
[00:38:58] and speak out what the Lord had done for them
[00:39:02] and how horrible things were before.
[00:39:05] And that's why I say here, overcomers do not stay silent.
[00:39:09] Revelations 12, 11 says, and they overcame him
[00:39:11] by the blood of the lamb and by the word of their testimony
[00:39:15] and they love not their lives unto the death.
[00:39:18] So the word of your testimony is,
[00:39:20] you've got to speak it out.
[00:39:22] You've got to speak it out.
[00:39:24] And they love not their lives unto the death.
[00:39:27] That's what you do whenever you're giving your testimony,
[00:39:31] you don't care what people think of you.
[00:39:35] If you've got some nasty, yucky thing
[00:39:37] that the Lord has brought you out of,
[00:39:39] it doesn't matter if it's pornography.
[00:39:43] There are men who have been brought out of pornography,
[00:39:47] but they would never admit that they were in it.
[00:39:51] People need to hear that.
[00:39:52] Because if these ladies hadn't have done that,
[00:39:57] it could have delayed my being able to come out
[00:39:59] and tell my testimony.
[00:40:02] It's powerful when you open up
[00:40:05] and share what the Lord has done.
[00:40:07] There's power in that.
[00:40:08] Second Corinthians 5.17 says,
[00:40:10] therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature.
[00:40:14] Old things are passed away.
[00:40:16] Behold, all things are become new.
[00:40:19] You're a new creature when you're born again,
[00:40:22] when you give your life to the Lord, when you surrender.
[00:40:25] But it also says old things are passed away.
[00:40:27] You've got to let them die
[00:40:30] and you've got to let them out in the open.
[00:40:33] First John one, five through nine.
[00:40:37] This then is the message which we have heard of him
[00:40:40] and declare unto you that God is light
[00:40:43] and in him is no darkness at all.
[00:40:47] If we say that we have fellowship with him
[00:40:49] and walk in darkness, we lie and do not the truth.
[00:40:53] But if we walk in the light as he is in the light,
[00:40:55] we have fellowship one with another
[00:40:58] and the blood of Jesus Christ,
[00:41:00] his son cleanses us from all sin.
[00:41:03] If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves
[00:41:06] and the truth is not in us.
[00:41:07] If we confess our sins, he is faithful
[00:41:10] and just to forgive us our sins
[00:41:11] and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
[00:41:14] And I know we usually focus on that last passage.
[00:41:19] He's faithful and just to cleanse, we confess our sins.
[00:41:22] And I have been doing that for years.
[00:41:24] I have been, I've been like, okay, Lord,
[00:41:27] you know, I had mourned over my sin.
[00:41:31] I had confessed it to him.
[00:41:33] And I thought that's all it took to be free,
[00:41:36] to really be set free.
[00:41:38] But there was more, there was more to that.
[00:41:41] And up here it says God is light
[00:41:43] and in him is no darkness.
[00:41:45] When you allow things to stay hidden, it's in darkness.
[00:41:48] That means you've got darkness going on in your life.
[00:41:51] You need the Lord's light to shine on it
[00:41:53] and you need to be able to open up.
[00:41:56] And I'm not saying tell your dirt to everybody in the world.
[00:41:59] Don't do that.
[00:42:00] And don't get on Facebook and do it
[00:42:02] unless the Lord leads you.
[00:42:04] But James 5, 13 through 16,
[00:42:08] part of this is confess your faults one to another
[00:42:12] and pray for one another that ye may be healed.
[00:42:16] We like the whole confess to God,
[00:42:20] but we don't get into as much
[00:42:22] the confess your faults one to another
[00:42:24] and pray for one another that ye may be healed.
[00:42:28] The faults on that is a side slip, a lapse,
[00:42:33] a deviation, unintentional error or willful transgression,
[00:42:37] a fall, a fault, offense, sin, trespass.
[00:42:41] You're supposed to be confessing those, not hiding them.
[00:42:45] And then you go to the next healed means to make whole.
[00:42:50] And I believe that's why we have a lot of people,
[00:42:52] a lot of Christians walking around here,
[00:42:54] a lot of people who love the Lord
[00:42:56] that are walking around that are not whole.
[00:42:59] You know, you love the Lord, you read your Bible,
[00:43:01] you listen to Pastor Dean's sermons,
[00:43:04] but you're still walking around
[00:43:06] and there's just something missing, you're hiding stuff.
[00:43:10] First Peter 2.9,
[00:43:11] but ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood,
[00:43:14] a holy nation, a peculiar people
[00:43:16] that you should show forth the praises of him
[00:43:18] who has called you out of darkness
[00:43:20] into his marvelous light.
[00:43:23] There seems to be a theme, you know?
[00:43:26] Come into the light,
[00:43:28] let the Lord shine his light on these things
[00:43:31] and truly be set free from it.
[00:43:33] Because here's the thing,
[00:43:35] if you do not confess these things
[00:43:37] and speak these things out
[00:43:38] when the Lord has delivered you from them,
[00:43:41] if I had never been able to stand up and say,
[00:43:44] I had three abortions, I have repented for them
[00:43:47] and the Lord has set me free from spirits of suicide
[00:43:51] and death and depression
[00:43:53] and heaviness and anger and self-hatred,
[00:43:58] then I wouldn't truly be free
[00:44:00] and I wouldn't be truly walking in the light.
[00:44:05] And the devil would have a foothold with me.
[00:44:08] He would have a place in my life
[00:44:10] because he could always speak to me
[00:44:13] and influence my actions.
[00:44:15] When you are able to share it all,
[00:44:18] he has nothing in you.
[00:44:20] The enemy has nothing he can do
[00:44:24] because you are transparent.
[00:44:27] Second Corinthians 7.1 says,
[00:44:28] having therefore these promises,
[00:44:30] dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves
[00:44:32] from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit,
[00:44:35] perfecting holiness and the fear of God.
[00:44:37] That just means we have a part to play in this.
[00:44:40] We have to take action.
[00:44:41] We have to be active in cleansing ourselves
[00:44:45] and getting all of this stuff out of our lives
[00:44:48] and unhooking the chains that the devil has.
[00:44:51] You can go through deliverance,
[00:44:54] but if you never testify about it,
[00:44:55] you never share with other people
[00:44:57] what the Lord has done in your life,
[00:44:59] then you're still in bondage.
[00:45:02] John 3, 19 through 21 says,
[00:45:05] and this is the condemnation
[00:45:06] that light has come into the world
[00:45:09] and men love darkness rather than light
[00:45:11] because their deeds were evil.
[00:45:13] That's usually why you keep things a secret.
[00:45:17] Deeds were evil.
[00:45:18] For everyone that doeth evil hateth the light.
[00:45:21] Neither cometh to the light,
[00:45:23] lest his deeds should be reproved.
[00:45:25] But he that doeth truth cometh to the light
[00:45:28] that his deeds may be manifest,
[00:45:30] that they are wrought in God.
[00:45:32] So if you doeth the truth,
[00:45:34] if you are truly into the truth,
[00:45:35] once again, here's that theme.
[00:45:38] You let things come to light.
[00:45:39] You share things.
[00:45:42] You testify.
[00:45:43] You take away the power of Satan.
[00:45:45] And it doesn't matter, once again,
[00:45:47] if it's abortion.
[00:45:48] One in three women,
[00:45:50] I mean, that is a mind-blowing statistic.
[00:45:53] One in three women, by the time they're 45,
[00:45:55] have had an abortion.
[00:45:57] So how many women that are sitting in here
[00:46:01] have had an abortion,
[00:46:02] but they would be absolutely full of shame and terrified
[00:46:07] to stand up and say that they did.
[00:46:10] And so they're still,
[00:46:11] the enemy is still just using that in their mind
[00:46:13] and in their life.
[00:46:16] John 8, 12, then Jesus spake unto them,
[00:46:19] saying, I am the light of the world.
[00:46:21] He that followeth me shall not walk in darkness,
[00:46:24] but shall have the light of life.
[00:46:28] Ephesians 4, 27, neither give place to the devil.
[00:46:32] And that's what I'm talking about here.
[00:46:33] He really, it goes to a fear of man thing.
[00:46:37] Neither give place to the devil.
[00:46:40] I'm gonna encourage all of you, you know.
[00:46:43] I could right now, I could right now ask,
[00:46:49] if we have more time,
[00:46:51] we could ask people to stand up
[00:46:53] and share, what is it?
[00:46:54] What is it that the Lord set you free from?
[00:46:57] And see how many people would truly be bold enough
[00:47:00] and put the fear behind them
[00:47:03] to have the devil lose his place in your life.
[00:47:11] Maybe we'll do that another time.
[00:47:14] Last one.
[00:47:15] Well, I've got two more.
[00:47:17] The fear of man,
[00:47:18] and this is where my title comes from.
[00:47:20] The fear of man bringeth a snare,
[00:47:23] but whoso putteth his trust in the Lord shall be safe.
[00:47:27] Proverbs 29, 25.
[00:47:29] You see the picture, it's not a great one,
[00:47:31] but you see this picture.
[00:47:32] You're walking along in your walk of life
[00:47:36] and you've got this snare.
[00:47:38] And that's what it is.
[00:47:39] If you're afraid to speak out,
[00:47:41] if you're afraid to share your testimony,
[00:47:43] if you're afraid to really share
[00:47:45] what the Lord's done in your life,
[00:47:47] you're gonna walk into a snare.
[00:47:49] You've got the fear of man
[00:47:51] instead of trust in the Lord.
[00:47:52] We've got to move from fear to faith
[00:47:57] and trust that when the Lord sets you free
[00:48:00] and you give your testimony,
[00:48:03] it's gonna be powerful.
[00:48:04] Just like those two ladies that gave that testimony to me,
[00:48:08] it set me free.
[00:48:09] It started taking off chains.
[00:48:11] It started lightening my load.
[00:48:13] I'm like, you know what?
[00:48:14] There are other people here that are like this,
[00:48:16] and that's what we need to do.
[00:48:18] We need to take our mask off and say,
[00:48:20] okay, this is the real me
[00:48:21] and this is what I really did in life.
[00:48:24] And it's okay because I trust in the Lord
[00:48:28] and he's done a mighty miracle in my life.
[00:48:30] He's done something spectacular in my life
[00:48:33] and I love him and trust him enough to say,
[00:48:36] I don't care what you think.
[00:48:38] I want to testify to his goodness.
[00:48:40] That's what we do whenever we let him shine his light
[00:48:42] in our life and we start speaking about it.
[00:48:45] We crucify ourselves and our fear
[00:48:50] and we testify to his goodness
[00:48:52] and that's what we're supposed to do.
[00:48:53] And when we do that,
[00:48:54] 2 Corinthians 1, 3 through 4,
[00:48:58] talks about blessed be God,
[00:48:59] even the father of our Lord Jesus Christ,
[00:49:01] the father of mercies and the God of all comfort
[00:49:04] who comfort us in all our tribulation
[00:49:09] that we may be able to comfort them which are in trouble
[00:49:13] by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted.
[00:49:17] And that's what the Lord really shared with me
[00:49:21] when I was working as the executive director.
[00:49:23] I went from being a pregnant 17-year-old
[00:49:27] and a woman who had three abortions
[00:49:29] to working as the executive director, CEO of a ministry
[00:49:34] where I was able to comfort other people.
[00:49:36] I was able to tell them I made the wrong decision.
[00:49:39] I made the right decision
[00:49:42] and I never regretted having my daughter at 17.
[00:49:47] I regretted having three abortions.
[00:49:49] He was able to take me from the shame and the guilt
[00:49:54] to be able to use it to set other people free.
[00:49:57] And so that's what I wanna encourage you guys to do
[00:50:02] whether it's making a YouTube video
[00:50:04] because that was powerful.
[00:50:07] I mean, I shared that and who knows how many people
[00:50:10] from sharing the video about being set free
[00:50:13] from that suicide and torment and rage got set free
[00:50:18] because they realized, oh wait,
[00:50:20] I don't have to hide this anymore.
[00:50:22] So that's it, thank you.
[00:50:34] I want everybody, well, let's do this.
[00:50:36] Mark and Anna, come back one more time.
[00:50:39] I know there's a song we gotta sing again real quick.
[00:50:41] God of Miracles.
[00:50:43] As they play this song, this is what we're gonna do.
[00:50:45] This is what the Lord showed me.
[00:50:48] I want any ladies in this room that's had an abortion
[00:50:54] or men that's had someone that's had an abortion
[00:50:59] because of you, I want you to come over here
[00:51:01] and stand over here.
[00:51:02] We're gonna have my wife and some others help her
[00:51:06] pray over here, but I want you,
[00:51:08] and if you've never even ever confessed it
[00:51:10] or admitted it, it's time.
[00:51:13] It's time, there's nobody here to condemn you over it.
[00:51:18] It's not condemning anybody.
[00:51:20] It's time for healing and deliverance.
[00:51:24] Amen from those spirits.
[00:51:36] Come on, God loves you.
[00:51:38] He's forgiven you.
[00:51:41] Now he wants to heal you.
[00:51:54] I'm gonna tell you right now, the spirit of depression
[00:51:56] is gonna leave you, the spirit of death,
[00:51:58] the spirit of suicide, even the spirit of infirmity.
[00:52:05] Come on.
[00:52:19] Y'all just, I'll tell you what,
[00:52:20] just play God of Miracles kind of quietly.
[00:52:25] We'll go ahead.
[00:52:26] I'm just, whew, I'll tell you, the Lord's here.
[00:52:30] Oh, I'm gonna tell you, y'all just don't know
[00:52:32] there's this thing about public confession
[00:52:38] saying, here I am.
[00:52:41] I wanna tell you, some of the greatest revivals in history
[00:52:44] is because people started coming forth publicly
[00:52:46] and confessing their sins and saying, God forgive me,
[00:52:49] God help me, and oh man, is God gonna say this?
[00:52:56] I'm gonna say this real quick.
[00:52:58] There may be somebody sitting out there right now, still.
[00:53:02] You just hold them back, you're still afraid.
[00:53:05] You're afraid for anybody to know.
[00:53:06] You're afraid, you're too ashamed.
[00:53:07] Don't let that devil's lie hold you in your seat
[00:53:11] because God is here.
[00:53:13] He's gonna bring some healing in the living room.
[00:53:22] I want you, I'm gonna get you to pray this with me,
[00:53:24] and Nancy and Pastor Dee, they're gonna come around
[00:53:28] and pray with you here.
[00:53:29] But first, I think we can all pray this prayer.
[00:53:32] Because my wife, even after she confessed,
[00:53:38] and even came about public with it,
[00:53:40] and God was beginning that healing process in her life,
[00:53:44] and she was in a good place.
[00:53:45] I mean, we'd been walking with the Lord for real
[00:53:47] for several years before we, God brought us together.
[00:53:51] But we were sitting in a car one day, driving somewhere,
[00:53:53] and we weren't even married yet.
[00:53:54] We were engaged.
[00:53:56] And I felt this darkness in the car.
[00:54:01] And I remember she, it was almost like
[00:54:02] it tried to turn us into something to try to fight.
[00:54:06] And I was just like, what is the spirit here?
[00:54:08] And she admitted of the constant thoughts
[00:54:14] of committing suicide, like driving a car off a road,
[00:54:16] killing yourself.
[00:54:18] And I said, well, you know what that is.
[00:54:21] I said, you've never had the spirits of death
[00:54:25] that you've been murdered, that you opened the door to
[00:54:27] by having an abortion.
[00:54:31] And so, I was still driving the car.
[00:54:35] I just reached over and said, in the name of Jesus,
[00:54:38] I bind the demon spirits of death
[00:54:40] and murder and suicide and depression.
[00:54:44] I bind these demons that came in through those abortions.
[00:54:46] I command you to leave in the name of Jesus Christ.
[00:54:51] They left immediately.
[00:54:55] And she will tell you to this day,
[00:54:56] she's never had another thought like that,
[00:54:58] another feeling like that, is those demons.
[00:55:00] So those of you over here,
[00:55:03] and if somebody's still gonna come pray with you,
[00:55:05] I want you to bow your heads if you've had an abortion
[00:55:07] or caused one, and I want you to pray this with me.
[00:55:14] Lord Jesus, I know you have forgiven me.
[00:55:19] I know you love me.
[00:55:22] I know I did a terrible thing.
[00:55:25] But Lord, your blood was shed to wash that sin away.
[00:55:32] But Lord, I know that opened the door
[00:55:36] for demon spirits to come in.
[00:55:39] Death, destruction, suicide, depression, anger, rage.
[00:55:48] So Lord, I know you've given me authority
[00:55:52] to cast out demons in Jesus' name.
[00:55:57] So right now, in Jesus' name,
[00:56:01] I bind the demon spirits of death,
[00:56:06] murder, suicide, depression, heaviness, anger.
[00:56:12] I bind these demons that came into me
[00:56:16] through the abortions.
[00:56:18] I command you, go from me now, in Jesus' name.
[00:56:24] Oh, Jesus' name.
[00:56:38] And say right now, Lord Jesus.
[00:56:40] And this is what I want y'all, y'all go pray.
[00:56:42] I want somebody, they're gonna come lay hands on you.
[00:56:44] And with this, we're gonna pray right now.
[00:56:46] It's two things for those of you here
[00:56:50] that God would heal your heart,
[00:56:52] that wound, that emptiness is there.
[00:56:55] Because there's supposed to be a child,
[00:56:57] and that child's not there.
[00:57:02] And it's okay, it's okay.
[00:57:06] It's time to heal, Lord.
[00:57:09] God doesn't want you carrying that wound in your heart
[00:57:12] and that pain in your heart forever.
[00:57:17] So I'm believing right now,
[00:57:18] because Jesus came to heal the brokenhearted,
[00:57:22] to set the captives free.
[00:57:25] And there's some times that he has,
[00:57:28] that he's just, the healing is not a physical healing,
[00:57:32] but there's such a wound in the spirit,
[00:57:33] there's such a wound in the heart and the soul and the mind.
[00:57:38] So you believe tonight, right now,
[00:57:39] that not only did Jesus pay the price for physical healing,
[00:57:43] but he paid the price to heal the brokenhearted,
[00:57:46] to heal that wound, to feel that empty place,
[00:57:49] to take away the guilt, to take away the shame,
[00:57:54] because that's what his blood was shed to do,
[00:57:56] to take away the guilt and the shame and the pain
[00:58:02] that we inflict upon ourselves.
[00:58:06] I wanna say, y'all go ahead and go start praying for him.
[00:58:10] Hallelujah.
[00:58:11] All right, prayer team, go ahead
[00:58:12] and start praying for folks.
[00:58:15] Thank you, Jesus.